Ran+Harley Always & Forever!!!

Checking in

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 02:01:37 GMT

As my subject heading says, I'm just checking in on what I was suppose to be doing. So far, I've done everything, with the exception of looking into CO schools. That will be my goal for tomorrow. But I'll have to read more about careers in that book tonite, so I'll know what to be looking for in the schools.

I need to be going but here's a list of what I have done lately:
1. Got job at Harris Teeter
2. Got job at Borders. I just wish they paid more...*Stomach grumbles*
3. Filled out application at Macy's
4. Emailed questions about a nanny position
5. Decided I was going to decline the vet receptionist's position and wrote letter to deliver tomorrow (be faster than the mail)
6. Will send off application for receptionist's position at speech therapy place
7. Got loans to go to school...and for other things...
8. Reading 2 of my library books at once--to better myself

Been one of those days...

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 01:20:15 GMT

I won't even talk about how the past few weeks have went. Right now, I'm trying to keep my spirits up and keep myself going, so I can see that rainbow. But I'm finding myself running out of options and feeling more sorry for myself. I hear about people who have bounced back from poverty, but I just don't know if I'm strong enough. I want to be but...*Screams* It's just so frustrating!!! And I know no one is obligated to help me, but I still feel mad at my parents for how they've ended up and where I am at. Which isn't all their fault. I just wish I knew what happened to me. Where did I start to go wrong? Was it my experiences in middle and high school that killed my drive, dreams, and confidence? I'm just very angry.

What I've done:
1. Got into contact with some lawyers about bankruptcy. I will keep trying to find someone that has more reasonable rates.
2. Got appointment to test at Harris Teeter. Very worried about that place and working for them.
3. Signed up for the sixteenth to be a volunteer at the Red Cross, I'm hoping.
4. Also sucked it up and turned in application with The Grande.
5. Watch EBay tutorials, so I can learn how to sell. Ran will lend me his camera so I don't have to rent one. Woot!

For the rest of the week:
1. Keep looking for lawyers.
2. Search web for applications. Still have to follow-up with the vet hospital.
3. Figure out school info.
4. Look for career coach.
5. Research CO schools.

Good luck and God speed.

Going out on vacation!

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 23:55:05 GMT

This upcoming week I will be unable to post since I will be staying with Ran all week long! Woot! I can't wait. I really need this getaway after the crappy week I have had.

In response to my last post, I accomplished everything I wanted to do, with the exception of going to GTCC. I signed up for SOAR but I still have not registered. I need to find out how to do this. Which will be my goal for this week. I also found a second job with Target, but changes will have to be made if I'm going to keep this job. I just hope it works out because I need money! :D To buy things...*Slaps self*...I didn't mean that...Yes, I did...LOL

Today, I searched the AllRetailJobs.com site. I put in an application with Blockbuster and got a callback about the cleaning position with FISH. Don't know if I'll follow-up with it or not. I will also look for a lawyer and turn in my application at the veterinary hospital and any others that I collected with Charlotte if I have the time...Which I probably won't but I'll try...I also need to start working on my web site...*Heavy sigh* I'm tired now...Time for oreos!!! Woot!

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 05:46:53 GMT

I read recently on a web site for female web designers about a new use for the journal. It's called a 'work journal.' The concept is this: Instead of posting about what you ate, who you hate, some annoyance that bothered you that day, you post about what you did that's work-related. For instance, you would put stuff like you went to Fedex Kinkos to fax a cover letter and resume or you updated your resume before sending it to a potential employer. Stuff like that basically. It helps you keep track of where you sent your resume as well as keeping you motivated and on track, so you don't slack off. Which is what I've been doing for the past two days. Granted, I have had a lot to think about and smashed my head open on the bathroom counter, but still...

Here's what I've done this week:

1. Mailed cover letters with resumes to both temp agencies. (A/N: Have not heard from either one in almost a week!)
2. Put in application at Days Inn. Will be following up with it tomorrow.
3. Mailed thank you letter to vet hospital for not hiring me.
4. Mailed apology letter to Edible Delights.
5. Checked on application status of Harris Teeter job. Did not get it. People there are very bitchy.
6. Filled out old application I found for cleaners.
7. Applied through Snagajob.com for cashier position with Fish Window Cleaners and Garden Ridge.
8. Yet again, filled out application for Borders which will never hire me because they will lose too much money when I get an employee discount.
9. Bought pretty resume paper.
10. Signed up for SOAR at GTCC. Let's see if I finish a semester this time! LOL

Here's the agenda for tomorrow:

1. Massage
2. Work out things with BB&T
3. Turn in application to Cleaners
4. Pick up and return application to Harris Teeter
5. Follow-up with Days Inn. See if everyone there doesn't speak English?
6. Find another place to put in an application at.
7. Try to repair things at work and hopefully not snap again. Because I am poor and need the stupid job.
8. Go to GTCC and find out options about returning and financial aid. UNCG is too booked.
9. Search another job search site when I return home.

Whoo! I'm going to be busy. I hope my prayer is answered. Cause I'm going to need some good luck.

PS: I love you, Ran! Universe's greatest boyfriend! MINE!!!

Topic: GBR

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 00:03:23 GMT

I remembered my password. Boo-yah! I can't write much at the moment. Between my family and neighbors, I'm ready to...Well, I don't know what. But do something!

But I would like to say, 'I LOVE YOU, RAN!' You make me very happy. Even if I don't realize it sometimes, I always do by the end of the day. Especially when I look at our picture together. I'm happy we met. I love you, Ran! I hope we will always be together.

Well, I tried...

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 05:17:11 GMT

I can't believe they want money if you want to change your username! It's crazy! And lame! Just like the girls at my work! LOL Well, babe, I tried to change the name of my journal, but I had to settle for changing the title of it. It still looks awesome, don't ya think? :D Maybe Charlotte can help me figure it out because she changed hers somehow. How did you do it, Char? Help! Well, it's getting late. I love you, babe! I really hope I get to come out there. Things just haven't been working out quite as I would like them too, except for our relationship. It still surprises me that we've lasted this long! I guess that's why I have so much fear, considering...I really can't imagine waking up and knowing I would never see you again or hear that sexy voice of yours. I can't even being to describe that kind of world. I don't want to! Again, I love you, Ran. Always and forever!

Flashback

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 04:02:39 GMT

Remember this, Ran? Hehehe

Or this...

I got jokes too!

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 23:01:53 GMT

Quote from Aimee in the Bad Girls Club

Yep, yep. Right now, I'm watching the Bad Girls Club at the moment. Aimee is my hero! LOL Man, I would so love to punk the girls at work, specifically Alice and Sarah. Speaking of work, I am now banned from bringing books to work. YESSSSS! Yet again, I have another 'boss' that wants me to quit. *Pauses for heavy long sigh* I'm not even sure what to say here now. I guess I thought it would be okay to read a book again at work since everyone else has been slacking around there too. Not that I slack on my work. FYI. Sarah is doing nothing as usual. Alice is hanging out in the back with her boyfriend and running her mouth as usual. Christos is bringing in tons of designer luggage and throwing it all over the place and texting while on the job. I mean, WTF?! But I guess you have to be in the club and Harley is definitely not in the club. It use to bother me a lot and hurt me but now...I just don't know. I'm starting to just not care.

'I don't know' is starting to become my new catch phrase lately. And I don't like it!

Long Day

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 05:00:57 GMT

Today has been a very long, bad day. For several reasons:

1. Found out I had an infection under one of my nails
2. Bad hair day
3. I was in a bad mood even before I got to work for no reason
4. I had to work with Sarah
5. I got chewed out at work in front of everyone for something that wasn't my fault
6. The gym I joined surprised me with a second pricey fee that I didn't know about
7. Now I want to quit that gym
8. I've been thinking a lot about the Police exam I'm going to take next Saturday and probably fail because I'm so out of shape
9. I can't stop thinking about the hardships ahead for me
10. Still haven't gotten a reply for any of the job requests I sent out
11. Didn't feel like talking to my boyfriend for very long, which sucked because I LOVE HIM!!!
12. Got in a fight with my grandmother and mother AGAIN
13. My grandmother is in the hospital again and I don't know how she is doing or if I care, which bothers me a lot because I should care

Yep, it's been a bad day. And tomorrow I have to work with Sarah AGAIN!!! I'm definitely not looking forward to that. I wish I could read a book at work like I use to, but I know I'll get in trouble if I do. Totally sucks. I just want to wrap up in a blanket and hide from the world this weekend. Maybe there will be a freak snow storm tomorrow morning and I won't have to go to work...

Yeah, right.

Cute pic!

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 18:56:48 GMT

Marcel was robbed!!!

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 17:58:34 GMT

Well, this week has been a busy week for me. It's definitely had its ups and downs as well. But today is a new day, so I'm hoping today will be another good one for me. So far, it has. It actually snowed today and my work told me not to bother coming in, so I didn't. Yea! Granted, I need the money, but I really wasn't looking forward to working with Sarah today. Yesterday was such a nice stress-free day for me without her there to bother me. So it's nice I also get another break from her again today. Hehehe.

This is also Day 1 of my break from MyO. I did go on to see how many comments I got and read them. But that's all! Oh, and I read one PM, but that's it! LOL I swear, saying you're leaving MyO or for a trip or ANYTHING really is always a great way to generate more comments for the post. LOL I should leave every day! *Laughs* Naw, I've actually been getting a lot more steady hits than when I first started out. Though I've noticed that there are not many good people on MyO that you can count on for good conversation and that will actually return the favor and visit you. But that's my opinion anyway. Plus, I've always been comfortable in small group settings and having few friends. It's what I'm use to, so why change. *Shrugs* Besides, I got all I need really in my baby, Ran. Yep, yep. I love you!!!

I don't care what Yensid says. I don't think I will ever get tired of you. And you know how I am, babe. You'll let me have my space if I need it and vice versa. But truthfully, I don't think I'll ever need that. I may not want to talk sometimes, but getting away from you-NEVER!!! :D

Okay, so I gave you more time than poor Marcel, but I'm bias. I love you, Ran!

Hello

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 19:35:12 GMT

Time: 2:24 p.m.
Status: No headache for once, but my back and neck are starting to hurt a little
Song: Freak on a Leash by Korn
Mood: Depressed and Agitated
Weather: I don't know because I haven't been outside today. But I can see some sunlight coming through, so that's a good clue.

Hi!

Well, this is my first entry on livejournal. It kind of sucks that my I'm starting out with such a boring post, but if I don't write anything, then I might not ever, so cut me some slack people. I've had a rough week ever since I returned from Colorado, where my boyfriend currently lives. I'm not sure why I've been in such a lousy mood lately. Nothing too bad has happened, except my grandmother has moved in to my house and I missed my Police exam this morning because I forgot all about it...Well, I guess those are two pretty big bad things right there. LOL Plus, there's all the crap from last year that I never resolved that is coming back to bite me in the ass. Like my financial problems. Like my crappy work situation. Like my mother. Like my whole freakin' living situation!

*Shakes head* I know a large portion of my problems is due to the fact that I never mastered control over my feelings, which helped others to control my way of thinking about myself and hurt me. I also never learned of a better way to make myself feel better, instead of shopping. ThIS was a big mistake I made. I let myself get into so much financial debt that I'm just not sure of how to get out of it. Especially when I need to, in order to be with my boyfriend. The whole situation seems hopeless or at least, like it will take a long time to recover from; time I may not have. Yet, another worry I have. I don't want to lose my boyfriend. But I may if things don't change. At least my attitude anyway. Crap, crap, crap!

I just don't know what to do anymore...Um, okay, I'm driving myself crazy now. Time to do something fun now. Later!